I'm not someone to choose a word for my year or set out with any big aspirations for change. Likely because I am a fair amount of lazy and avoid disappointment at all costs. God knows that about me, so He tends to take care of the planning and usually by December I have realized what it is I was suppose to learn. If not, he always lets me repeat the lesson. He's real generous like that. So, after spending 2017 stepping into youth ministry and feeling BRAVE I headed into 2018 like David after Goliath. I mean, God was for sure using me for some giant situations! He had given me a passion that excited and inspired me in a way I had never before experienced. People around me noticed. I was ready to take on the world. Then, slowly but surely, the path I envisioned started to fade. The ways I intended to use my passion fell away and I was left with a dream that had no real path. Now don't get me wrong, He was still using me. I could see that even in the midst of the c
The urge to write is a fickle friend. I can go months and months without a single word and then suddenly she yells so loudly, I can’t help but answer her call. Come to think, it’s not all that different from parenting an introverted teenager. So here I go……. Last week I text a friend and told her that I felt unqualified. Not overwhelmed or stressed or over-committed, just heavy. Like the weight of all the things that surround me are more than I could ever have the capacity to mend or relieve. Questions I can't answer, needs I can't meet, fears I can't comfort, wounds I can't heal. The resources, gifts and wisdom I bring feel so insignificant. Like a little boy with his sack lunch looking at a crowd of hungry people. Almost instantly, I heard God speak to my heart “This is where I use you best. When all you have is all I gave, that’s when I shine.” When the need is greater than I possess, that’s when He multiplies. When the call is greater than m