Sometimes, I spend so much time thinking about how something might come together, I miss a dozen chances to make anything happen. This blog is a prime example. I have created three blogs but have posted none. I have spent hours thinking of names, all of them falling short. I have felt completely overwhelmed by something that millions of people around the world do everyday. In fact, I know of small children who have not only created blogs, but also post to them on a regular basis. I, on the other hand, sit on the couch paralyzed. My fingers will not type. My mind will not think. This is….stupid.
I am not afraid to let you see the real me. Most would tell you that I could stand for some reserve. I am impatient, lazy and lacking self control and I won’t deny any of that. I know who I am. I know who I’m not. So what’s the problem? If none of this bothers me, than why have I been dragging my heels for more than a year to create this blog? What is it that overwhelms me so?
The answer is simple. Not pretty but simple. I have no faith in the potential of myself. More accurately, I have no faith in my God. I don’t believe that I am gifted enough, witty enough, or qualified enough. Now, I am a firm believer that without HIM I am nothing. I’m just not sure that I truly believe the opposite. But that is the way it works. “Through Him ALL things are possible.” (Mat. 19:26) To believe anything else is to call Him a liar.
So from this day forward, I will not drag another heel. I will put one foot in front of the other. I will leave my insecurities behind. I will write this blog.
yea!!! I'm so proud of you my sweet friend! I have complete faith that you are absolutely gifted enough, witty enough and more than qualified! :) Love you and so glad you took the leap!
ReplyDeleteWelcome to the blogging world...for real this time. I have always enjoyed each moment I have spent with you and each conversation that we've had. With Christ in you, you are just as you should be. And that is enough. :)
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